So i got bac from my trip with the family tuesday afternoon. and actually it was kinda fun, was expecting to be really bored and uncomfortable. I was only like that occasionaly. It was cool, we were about 2000 or more feet off the ground and my hotel room was right next to a creek. LOL. ok so there was this hedgehog, beaver, badger, gerbil thing that lived under a rock next to this creek and it was sooooooooooo cute. But i had no idea what it was, so i named him squishy. lol. he was kinda fat and his fur looked soft and squisy. too bad I couldnt take him home though =/ spent alot of my time working out, that was pretty fun. a little sore, but thats working out for you..
ok, so i have this new found love for coffee. like ahhhhhhhhhhhhhh, cream and sugar please. lol. love that stuff. but its not my fault, i auditioned for the poetry reading/music singing and playing cafe set up type thing at my school called the "coffee house" a few wks bac. it was cool, lecture hall was set up like a cafe. was pretty legit. and so i made the audition of course and read my poetry, and my friends jeff and jerry had me drinking coffee. and so began my obssession. and 2 hrs and 6 cups of coffee later, i was hooked. and i had coffee when i was on the mountain, mountain coffee rocks!!!!!!!!!! lol
hmm, im going to the zoo with some friends later today. im excited for a number of different reason. All of which i wont explain right now, just hope things become more clear and work out 4 me =)
listening 2 jesse mcCartneys "just so you know" and the video comes to mind..at the end, he gets the girl. hmm, i wonder if itll happen like that jesse. doubt it. but i can be hopeful, right? lol
anyhow, i dont sleep so i'll be up. insomnia rocks and sucks at the same time.
but for those of you who do sleep, enjoy your night.
Peace,
Fall
Wednesday, March 31, 2010
Saturday, March 27, 2010
Spring Break. Growing Up. Jesse McCartney
So suppose to be leaving in a couple hours. Heading to Massanutten Resort in middle of nowhere VA. lol. it looks pretty cool from the website, but im going with my mom and little bro. ugh. id really rather stay here and be able to not be around them. idk what it is..or what exactly happened. but i really dont like being around people..especially family.
mom is always talking bout how when i was my brothers age i would talk to her and we'd hang out (false) b/c i know exactly what i was doing at 9 and 10 and it wasnt anything good. But you wonder when parents will understand that we're growing up and dont want to be with them anywhere near as much as we use to. Maybe mine is a special case, though i doubt it, but i dont even like saying hello. smh @ myself..yea i know what your thinking, "thats terrible, she's your mom" i know that, but growing up i always spent all my time alone for the most part and i didnt talk to many people. mostly myself, lol yea i was crazy.
I'll be 17 on april 7th. less than 2 wks away. thats one year from 18 and i'll be gone..i wonder if she'll realize that when my lil bro becomes a teenager he'll want to be either by himself or with friends all the time. I just want her to get that im growing up, and im not gonna change who i am...sigh...
well aside from that, i am on a jesse mcCartney phase for some reason..idk, friend of mine played "leavin" the other day and i remembered how much i liked his music before. so now im on a non stop McCartney phase. lol..id say that the three song i've listened to over and over the last few days are "Anybody". "Beautiful Soul". and "Just so you know"...those three touch my heart is 3 really weird and different ways...anybody makes me think of broken promises from an ex of mine from a few years ago, and not being taken advantage of..lol..i was such a stupid kid, she took advantage of me sooooo often...and Beautiful Soul touches me because there's someone that I know, who has a beautiful soul. and i dont want someone else. because there are tons of beautiful people but i want someone who is beautiful inside and out..And then Just So You Know touches me b/c im still dealing with a break up from a few months bac. pushing forward and trying to get through it but it's hard. and this song probly doesnt help. lol..
well anyhow, i'll be outta town til tuesday but to everyone on spring break, enjoy it and be safe.
Peace,
Fall...
mom is always talking bout how when i was my brothers age i would talk to her and we'd hang out (false) b/c i know exactly what i was doing at 9 and 10 and it wasnt anything good. But you wonder when parents will understand that we're growing up and dont want to be with them anywhere near as much as we use to. Maybe mine is a special case, though i doubt it, but i dont even like saying hello. smh @ myself..yea i know what your thinking, "thats terrible, she's your mom" i know that, but growing up i always spent all my time alone for the most part and i didnt talk to many people. mostly myself, lol yea i was crazy.
I'll be 17 on april 7th. less than 2 wks away. thats one year from 18 and i'll be gone..i wonder if she'll realize that when my lil bro becomes a teenager he'll want to be either by himself or with friends all the time. I just want her to get that im growing up, and im not gonna change who i am...sigh...
well aside from that, i am on a jesse mcCartney phase for some reason..idk, friend of mine played "leavin" the other day and i remembered how much i liked his music before. so now im on a non stop McCartney phase. lol..id say that the three song i've listened to over and over the last few days are "Anybody". "Beautiful Soul". and "Just so you know"...those three touch my heart is 3 really weird and different ways...anybody makes me think of broken promises from an ex of mine from a few years ago, and not being taken advantage of..lol..i was such a stupid kid, she took advantage of me sooooo often...and Beautiful Soul touches me because there's someone that I know, who has a beautiful soul. and i dont want someone else. because there are tons of beautiful people but i want someone who is beautiful inside and out..And then Just So You Know touches me b/c im still dealing with a break up from a few months bac. pushing forward and trying to get through it but it's hard. and this song probly doesnt help. lol..
well anyhow, i'll be outta town til tuesday but to everyone on spring break, enjoy it and be safe.
Peace,
Fall...
Saturday, March 20, 2010
Why is your bag full of tulips? Lol
Hey, yea me again. lol. things str8 with me for now (thats always good). jus trying to get through life and juggle everyone and everything..Its a REALLY nice day outside, its the nicest saturday i've seen in a while. got to enjoy it a bit and now im jus chillin in the house, but um, yea on to the important thing...
So theres this song by lupe called "and he gets the girl" lol very funny song but its real. especially to alot of ppl with low confidence. now im not saying i have low confidence, because i dont. Not at all. But there's always that one girl who you see and your jus like "damn, not sure if i could pull that off" and this song kinda makes me think of situations ive been in like that.
But as of right now im kinda talking to someone. but not, lol, you know how girls are with their mixed signals. normally id be like hmmmm idk if i can do this. but yea, i can =) this one...she's special. we get along well. we have alot in common, she's funny, and she swear she can beat me up. LOL. but all in all. we're friends and idk how that's gonna go exactly, but its looking bright..
Lol and im listening to And he gets the girl now. and the last line is my fav.
"Lucas dear, why is your bag full of tulips?"
"um, there's this girl and i was thinking that i might walk to her, try and talk to her. discuss different things that would talk to her. and see what makes her tick".
Lol love that song.
Anyhow, May the force be with you
Peace,
Fall
So theres this song by lupe called "and he gets the girl" lol very funny song but its real. especially to alot of ppl with low confidence. now im not saying i have low confidence, because i dont. Not at all. But there's always that one girl who you see and your jus like "damn, not sure if i could pull that off" and this song kinda makes me think of situations ive been in like that.
But as of right now im kinda talking to someone. but not, lol, you know how girls are with their mixed signals. normally id be like hmmmm idk if i can do this. but yea, i can =) this one...she's special. we get along well. we have alot in common, she's funny, and she swear she can beat me up. LOL. but all in all. we're friends and idk how that's gonna go exactly, but its looking bright..
Lol and im listening to And he gets the girl now. and the last line is my fav.
"Lucas dear, why is your bag full of tulips?"
"um, there's this girl and i was thinking that i might walk to her, try and talk to her. discuss different things that would talk to her. and see what makes her tick".
Lol love that song.
Anyhow, May the force be with you
Peace,
Fall
Sunday, March 14, 2010
Jet Black Sky
Jet Black Sky
Meets bright white lights
They hit and connect fleetingly
In their momentary intercourse
It catches my eye
And i'm drawn into Autumn's skyline
It's not the first time that i've watched her colors mix
And it's not the first time i've watched her clash
I kinda feel like she does
Momentarily connecting with someone but it's not the same feeling as your first love
So you return to the jet black sky
Waiting for the next color, waiting for the next light
Life on hold and I have to remember to breathe
Maybe Autumn and I will find the color for us
And have a clear horizon and i'll hit the skyline and feel free
And call it a hunch but I the feeling that whoever she is, is feeling like me
So one day i might find her and she'll be mine forever
Or maybe it wasn't meant to happen and she'll go
But she'll leave me something to remember her by
The same gift others leave Autumn, a Jet Black Sky...
Meets bright white lights
They hit and connect fleetingly
In their momentary intercourse
It catches my eye
And i'm drawn into Autumn's skyline
It's not the first time that i've watched her colors mix
And it's not the first time i've watched her clash
I kinda feel like she does
Momentarily connecting with someone but it's not the same feeling as your first love
So you return to the jet black sky
Waiting for the next color, waiting for the next light
Life on hold and I have to remember to breathe
Maybe Autumn and I will find the color for us
And have a clear horizon and i'll hit the skyline and feel free
And call it a hunch but I the feeling that whoever she is, is feeling like me
So one day i might find her and she'll be mine forever
Or maybe it wasn't meant to happen and she'll go
But she'll leave me something to remember her by
The same gift others leave Autumn, a Jet Black Sky...
poem
so hey, whats up. happy to say that i feel like im doing better, which is always good. um, about the last post i didnt about the poem i was writing. i changed it. inspiration works in very weird ways. so what i wanted to write isnt what my emotions wanted to write. so i wrote something else. i titled it "Jet Black Sky".
in a nut shell its about me looking up at the sky in my hometown (boston)which i named Autumn a while ago. (gotta keep up ppl) and seeing the colors clash and mix temporarily but the sky always ends up black (night time). and i felt the way she did. you mix with different ppl but nothing feels right or the same so you always end up as a jet black sky until you find that "one" for you..
in a nut shell its about me looking up at the sky in my hometown (boston)which i named Autumn a while ago. (gotta keep up ppl) and seeing the colors clash and mix temporarily but the sky always ends up black (night time). and i felt the way she did. you mix with different ppl but nothing feels right or the same so you always end up as a jet black sky until you find that "one" for you..
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