Next Project

so hey, whats up. havent been on in a while. been busy with life and gettin over stuff


so last time i blogged i was talking about the situation with the ex. and needless to say it hasnt gotten any better and hasnt gone anywhere really. we've just decided to stay friends for now and date other people and talkl about us later. and it hurts me alot. but you gotta live with your mistakes and deal with the outcome. So i guess ima talk 2 other people. lol. we'll see how that goes

so my next poem, which i dont have a title for, is gonna be about music kinda.
its gonna be about a guy who goes through a break up with his girl, a girl he loves. and has to live with the outcome and somehow cope with the pain. so he turns to his piano, it doesnt judge him, it never gets upset and he can just vent. now im not saying he talks to the piano, lol, that would be weird. he uses it to vent everything and free his mind..

so thats what im gonna be working on now, see the similarities? yea, gotta vent what i feel some how.. so oddly enough other than what im going through my inspiration for this is John Legend and Kid Cudi. yea, totally diff. but they inspire me alot. johns music is always deep and inspirational and kid cudi just knows how to make a good song. so this is what im doing

ill post it when i finish it

Peace,

Fall

Insomnia, Thoughts, and Emotions

so its like 1:30 something and im jus here doing nothing. now for you thats like, well dude thats early. and you right, but i dont sleep much. so this will become 2:30, and then 4 and then 5 and 8 and etc. you get the point. i dont sleep much. lol. especially when i dont hav to go 2 school nxt day, my body instantly goes into what i like to call "nah kid you aint sleepin mode". as of rite now, idk how many hours ive been up. crazy though.

so ive had a few things to think about recently, one of which is if ima move bac to boston in the summer and stay with my pops n bro instead of here with my mom. now, my mom is ok and all but ughhhh. (nuff said rite) nah, she;s a mom and what do all moms do? annoy you about little things. like recently i was out chillin with my bestfriend and his girl, and i got home and hr late and she causes such a big problem over it. and i remember her telling me when i was 14, "when you turn 18, if you arent already in college or hav a place to stay, too bad cuz you arent staying here anymore" lol. so bet, i aint mad at her and i plan on taking advantage of that and getting away as soon as i can. im not gonna miss her if i go, its my friends ill miss. so im still deciding...be bac home and start over in school, finish senior yr out there? or stay here and hav ups n downs with mom all the time? idk, ill hav to decide

so as i posted in previous blogs, i was havin sum issue with and ex and it was rlly bothering me. now im less bothered and im not too sure which direction to go in, i mean im already talking to ppl and looking around but things dont feel the same. so idk what to do, guess ima just hav to wait and see.

check out the poem i put up the other day, damn that was sick lol. gotta give props to reggie cuz hit me with the idea of her dancing by water and oceanlab for their trance and techno music lol. and thank you inspiration for hitting me so hard. lol

anyway, until nxt time kick, push, and deuce

Peace,

Fall

First Sight

She danced around the waters edge.

The moon light seemed to flow through the seams of her dress as she moved.

Her feet made no sound as she moved and spun across the grass, as if she were flying.

She was smiling as she moved, a light and beautiful smile.

And I found myself smiling with her. Her pace picked up and my heart beat followed.

She turned her head in my direction and her brown eyes searched mine, and we connected.

As she continued to dance I watched her reflection, her twin, move as gracefully as her.

I stood there hypnotized watching her twirl, each one seeming to beckon to me though I wasnt really there.

Her mood was care free, as if nothing was wrong with the world.

As if nothing could ever hurt her and her love would never end.

Her mood became mine and it felt good.

To release all the stress, and pain, and problems. Time wasnt a factor anymore, i watched her for what could have been eons.

She began to sing as she moved, and i'd never heard anything like it. Her voice had me in awe and I fell to my knees and listened.

I could feel everyword in my body and her melody seemed to wrap around me and hold me.

The purity of her words made my body confused.

I was warm, and I was cold. I wanted to move, but didnt know how. I was blind, but I could see.

Her dance slowed to a stop but she continued to sing.

She walked over to me and rubbed my cheek with her hand and looked gently into my eyes.

She quietly sang into my ear, I am what your hearts been seeking. I'm who you dream about, i've always been there and always will be. We are one, I love you.

She kissed my forhead and said i'll be waiting and I fell back into sleep and thought to myself if love at first sight exist, this is what it feels like.

I drifted off knowing i may never meet her there again...